Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Release.

The definition in Merriam-Webster's dictionary for "release" is the following:
  • to relieve from something that confines, burdens or oppresses

I would say for quite some time I have been confined; and I am to blame for part in how I have let it control me.

Confined, angered and saddened by a past that was not mine to choose, but chose me and by decisions that were made that affected me, and were not mine to make. However, I was the one who continued to carry this with me as I grew into an adult and let it affect my heart and harden my soul. In the last year after suffering a significant loss, a rebirth of sorts with a past that I longed for, and a repair of a relationship that has been long overdue - I think I can finally say that I have come to a point where "release" is the best word that could describe what I am experiencing.

The road has not been easy, and there were times that were dark, but with the most important of family and friends standing by my side and seeing me through, I am finally growing into a place of maturity, a sense of self. and peace. Peace that has been long overdue.

I realize that as each day passes, it is one that we cannot get back; do we learn - yes, but it is still gone and when it leaves there are times when you realize you should let the negative go with it. In the end what do we have, each other - family and friends (which is a family in itself we create for ourselves). And that is the most important thing of all. All of the people who would show up no matter the circumstances, but just because they love you.

It has taken me so long to get here, but each day I feel more free and more of a sense of release from everything I have carried with me over the last 20+ years. I wish you all peace in your own lives, wherever or whatever that may be for each of you.

Can I get an "Amen"! :)

Monday, February 14, 2011

Happy Valentine's Day

So another year and another Valentine's Day; I have to say it hasn't been all that bad. I mean normally (or I am starting to think it may just be me) if you are a single woman on this day, all you want to do is have it end as quickly as it came; but today hasn't been all that awful.
I was surprised at work with a dozen red roses and a card that wasn't signed - just a note wishing me a Happy V-Day. I did some investigating and learned who my flower romeo was, and it was such a nice surprise and to be thought of.........

And now I am spending the night with my 2 favorite guys - Sam and Tator :) They love their mama, and not just today but all of the other 364 days of the year too - and that's how it should be!





Friday, February 11, 2011

Rebirth......yes "another" one

So it has been months and months since I have posted anything......and after Jess decided to get back on the blog wagon I thought, well why not. There has been alot going on in the last several months and especially before, during and after the holidays. With that said, really all there is to bring you up to speed on currently is that I am single once again; the PK and I gave it another shot and it just wasn't going to work - so it's just me these days and I have been completely inspired by the song lyrics below by Sugar Land and thought it fitting for the place I am at in life as of now - go and search the song to hear it, it's B-E-A- utiful!

Little Miss
Little Miss down on love
Little Miss I give up
Little Miss I'll get tough, don't you worry about me anymore
Little Miss checkered dress
Little Miss one big mess
Little Miss I'll take less when I always give so much more

It's alright, it's alright, it's alright
Yeah, sometimes you gotta lose 'til you win
It's alright, it's alright, it's alright
It'll be alright again
It'll be alright again, I'm okay
It'll be alright again, I'm okay (I'm okay)
It'll be alright again, I'm okay

Little Miss do your best
Little Miss never rest
Little Miss be my guest, I'll make more anytime that it runs out
Little Miss you'll go far
Little Miss hide your scars
Little Miss who you are is so much more than you like to talk about

It's alright, it's alright, it's alright
Yeah, sometimes you gotta lose 'til you win
It's alright, it's alright, it's alright
It'll be alright again
It'll be alright again, I'm okay
It'll be alright again, I'm okay (I'm okay)
It'll be alright again, I'm okay

Hooooooooooold OoooooooonHooooooooooold On, you are loved
Are loved.......

Little Miss brand new start
Little Miss do your part
Little Miss big 'ole heart beats wide open and she's ready now for love
It's alright, it's alright, it's alright
Yeah, sometimes you gotta lose 'til you win

It's alright, it's alright, it's alright
It'll be alright again
It'll be alright again, I'm okay
It'll be alright again, I'm okay (I'm okay, it'll be alright again)
I'm okay! (It'll be alright again)